Ugh...

Just sitting here at home on this nice sunday. Its actually been a really nice day. Warm. I wanted to go do something with Ricky today. Nope. Originally we had planned to but then plans changed. So now I sit here home alone with nothing to do and nobody to play with. I love that I get to stay home and do nothing while everyone else goes out to have fun (<---Sarcastic). *Sigh...* I'm getting really sick of being ditched all the time.

Ricks grandma is really depressing to be around. She is living with his mom and she doesn't like it there because "these people don't even have a garden." She says things like, ''sometimes I just get fed up with living.'' And because she is losing her memory she repeats these things over and over. I just don't know what to say to someone who says things like that. I don't know what to say to anyone anymore.

I have issues with people. For some reason or another people just feel like they have to make me feel like i'm worthless. Make me feel unwanted and stupid. They feel like they can walk all over me and make me do whatever they feel like and I will just take it and all is well for them. And I admit I do just take it a lot of the time. I think I have a sign stapled to my forehead that says ''doormat.'' I guess I just have that kind of personality. Anyone want to trade?